Here I Go Again...

I wonder if sometimes the person we’re meant to be with is exactly the opposite of the person...

Thu, 22 Nov 2012 01:48:06 -0500

I wonder if sometimes the person we’re meant to be with is exactly the opposite of the person we imagined we’d be with?

if God grants us the desires of our heart…how does that work if our heart is deceitful above all things?

How would we know what we want?

Maybe the meaning is more broad and simplistic.

Photo

Wed, 17 Oct 2012 00:00:27 -0400

You’re everything I didn’t even know I was looking for…

Sat, 29 Sep 2012 21:30:21 -0400

You’re everything I didn’t even know I was looking for…

I actually don’t like anyone. Imagine that.

Tue, 25 Sep 2012 02:58:20 -0400

I actually don’t like anyone.

Imagine that.

Why is it so hard for me to realize that the right guy won’t treat me like shit? It’s...

Tue, 25 Sep 2012 02:11:09 -0400

Why is it so hard for me to realize that the right guy won’t treat me like shit?

It’s not that difficult of a concept.

Moved on?

Mon, 24 Sep 2012 01:52:06 -0400

You seem so far away.

You called last night. But it didn’t feel the same.

It was too distant.

We don’t have much in common anymore.

Except our passion for each other…if that even still exists…

I guess I still have those days… those days where I’m not immune to thinking about...

Wed, 19 Sep 2012 04:28:29 -0400

I guess I still have those days…

those days where I’m not immune to thinking about you.

I hate it.

I’m up at 3:30, crying, and I have to teach full-time tomorrow at 7:30 a.m…

Wed, 19 Sep 2012 04:21:10 -0400

I’m up at 3:30, crying, and I have to teach full-time tomorrow at 7:30 a.m…

Photographs are beautiful because they represent a moment in time, and that moment in time always...

Wed, 19 Sep 2012 02:46:53 -0400

Photographs are beautiful because they represent a moment in time, and that moment in time always stays the same. They never change, while people do.

Time Changes Everyone

Wed, 19 Sep 2012 02:37:20 -0400

When your ex looks NOTHING like you remember him….

And he doesn’t look happy…

Both are really sad.

Kind of destroys the illusion that he’d stay the same. How can someone look so different?

I’ll always prefer my mental image.

Awkward Late Night Thoughts

Tue, 18 Sep 2012 03:12:57 -0400

Tonight has been one of those nights where I have been feeling really down about nothing and everything in particular.

I’ve recently been putting together a mental montage of all the men I’ve hooked up with in the past year.

Two of them are now in serious relationships.

That shouldn’t make me feel bad, right?

Oh, but it does.

I didn’t make the cut and wasn’t good enough.

And the dumb girl plays the fool….once again

Thu, 14 Jun 2012 00:35:30 -0400

And the dumb girl plays the fool….once again

Pointless post.

Sat, 26 May 2012 05:20:36 -0400

Delusional?

Perhaps.

To quote the cliched’ phrase I’ve learned in my 20 somethings…”It happens.”

I know that phrase all too well. And I still use it.

It’s a wildly accepted “Get-out-of-jail” free card that is used by us 20-30 something to justify any action we choose to take. But hey….it happens. Right?

It's 2012. No longer 2008. It's time for me to be single.

Fri, 18 May 2012 03:00:02 -0400

That awkward moment when you realize you’ve only been single for 4 months at a time for the past year. After every three or four months, you went right back to your stupid ex.

The most I’ve been single is 4 months since the year 2008.

Something is wrong with this picture, right?

Never do I ever want to waste this many years on someone again.

This makes me scared to get married because I know the divorce rates. However, I know that if God-willing, I meet the right man and if we put God first, that our marriage will not fail.

But I don’t want to keep dating just any Jo-Shmoe until I find him.

I don’t want to date ANYONE else until I find him.

But how does one go about doing that? Don’t I have to date to find out if we’re right for each other? I guess that means raising my standards and only dating spiritually straight men who have the qualities I want in a husband and a father for my children.

Dear self, You’re not even trying. You’re despicable. You’re actually a horrible...

Thu, 10 May 2012 03:54:06 -0400

Dear self,

You’re not even trying. You’re despicable.

You’re actually a horrible person, did you know that?

Christian?

You hardly resemble one.

Let alone act like one on a daily basis.

Get your act together before you’re flipping burgers at Burger King.

Get your act together before God’s mercy runs out and your parents stop forgiving you.

-This is the lies Satan has been feeding me lately.

-This is the lies my parents have been feeding me, on a lower scale.

-I choose to believe that these aren’t true.

Constant battle.

Life is bullshit sometimes.

Thu, 10 May 2012 01:55:56 -0400

Life is bullshit sometimes.

It's a "Home-From-College Rant"

Tue, 08 May 2012 03:51:20 -0400

Life has been really weird lately.

I’ve been thinking too much about the future and it’s giving me a headache, frankly.

I’m on summer break and at home, so naturally I am spending copious hours on my computer researching my future. Grad schools, statistics, the GRE, apartments, cities, standards of living…you name it.

But what am I really getting done?

Nothing much.

I’m still giving my parents constant attitude like I was still seventeen years old. It’s like I go back into a time warp whenever I am back home from being away in school. Suddenly, i’m seventeen again, and having to defend my lifestyle and life decisions, all of the time.

My parents just don’t understand. This has been my mantra since my teenage years, and unfortunately, it still reigns true.

I think they view me as a incompetant teenager still. I want so badly to show them I know how to get my shit together and get things done.

I actually lead a fairly responsible life when I’m away from them.

I don’t exactly need my parents micromanaging my life decisions anymore when I’m at home. I don’t need constant instruction and do or do not’s told to me thousands of times.

I’m perfectly capable of functioning on a day-to-day basis, on my own.

I just wish that they could see that.

I hate everyone that is out there in a relationship and having sex and being loved on by another...

Tue, 03 Apr 2012 00:59:32 -0400

I hate everyone that is out there in a relationship and having sex and being loved on by another person. And just feeling that close to someone they love. Best feeling in the world.

And to know that my ex is doing this to someone else when I was that girl just two months ago, is the worst feeling in the world.

So to all of you out there that have this, I am really jealous. And angry at you.

Do i wish i bad a boyfriend? Hell yeah. But is it worth the heartache? Hell no.

Sun, 18 Mar 2012 07:19:00 -0400

Do i wish i bad a boyfriend? Hell yeah. But is it worth the heartache? Hell no.

There’s something about a song that says exactly what you want to say and sings it the way you...

Sun, 18 Mar 2012 03:52:01 -0400

There’s something about a song that says exactly what you want to say and sings it the way you need it to be sung.

Thanks for saying the words for me, Usher.