Here I Go Again...

The name is Jessica. I'm a college senior and trying to navigate this whole "being an adult" thing. I'm just trying to get through my twenties alive and well, happy. In other words, I have no idea what I'm doing.

It’s a “Home-From-College Rant”

Life has been really weird lately.

I’ve been thinking too much about the future and it’s giving me a headache, frankly.

I’m on summer break and at home, so naturally I am spending copious hours on my computer researching my future. Grad schools, statistics, the GRE, apartments, cities, standards of living…you name it.

But what am I really getting done?

Nothing much.

I’m still giving my parents constant attitude like I was still seventeen years old. It’s like I go back into a time warp whenever I am back home from being away in school. Suddenly, i’m seventeen again, and having to defend my lifestyle and life decisions, all of the time.

My parents just don’t understand. This has been my mantra since my teenage years, and unfortunately, it still reigns true.

I think they view me as a incompetant teenager still. I want so badly to show them I know how to get my shit together and get things done. 

I actually lead a fairly responsible life when I’m away from them. 

I don’t exactly need my parents micromanaging my life decisions anymore when I’m at home. I don’t need constant instruction and do or do not’s told to me thousands of times.

I’m perfectly capable of functioning on a day-to-day basis, on my own.

I just wish that they could see that.